JUST AN OPTION

Something to ponder on:

“Never let someone be your priority, while allowing yourself to be just their option.”

A good friend sends this to me via (the popular) text message. She knows me. She knows how stupid I’ve been for the past five months. And now, I’m doing the same thing. Sigh. Only proves that I’m really stupid when it comes to this kind of situation.

…Blah blah blah. Period.

…‘Little Mimi’ is a mistress. ‘Little Mimi’ realized she had never been a priority since she broke someone’s heart (corny…) a few years back then. Not that ‘little Mimi’ will call this as ‘karma’. But every time ‘Little Mimi’ feel special, her desire to push it through hurts her… much that ‘little Mimi’ can’t even breathe.  

…As far as ‘Little Mimi’ could remember, she’s now experiencing the sixth time. One, RP. Two, Bro. Three, Aw-Aw. Fourth, Beaver. Fifth, Panyet. Sixth? My ‘Honey’. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

…They all found their so-called girlfriends and forgot everything about ‘Little Mimi’. They all left ‘Little Mimi’ hanging in the middle of falling. Glad ‘Little Mimi’ gets used to it. But of course ‘Little Mimi’ was terribly hurt. Well, what ‘Little Mimi’ can say? It’s her fault, anyway.

…Waiting, since ‘Llittle Mimi’ saw Jack Dawson, for the right person to take care of her, to worry about her, to be her boss, to be her best friend, to be her comfort, to be her guide, to be her brother, to be her buddy, to be part of ‘Little Mimi’. None of them reached that but they became one of those once in a while. Sigh. 

…Sayang. I liked them. I enjoyed the time I’ve spend with them. They are not the typical guy friends I had. How can I turn back time to feel those joyful moments again?

…Still thankful of having them in the course of her college life and helped her in molding herself for being tough and strong and cheery and NUMB.

…Always an option? ‘Little Mimi’ thinks so. If only those guys had been more sensitive, ‘Little Mimi’ won’t be hurt.

…Glad ‘Little Mimi’ is a happy person. She gives her attention to more interesting people. Just like her professor who serves as an inspiration in her academics and who says ‘the feeling is mutual’ then smiles during their class.

…Glad she gained friends that make her blissful each day. ‘Little Mimi’ is tough. May be devastated at times. But as long as ‘Little Mimi’ smiles, she will never be distracted of things like this (her stupidity). She may always be an option, but as long as she moves on and waits for the right person, it proves that what happened and is happening to her is fair enough. Life is a journey. So she goes with the flow.